beginning to write again

TUESDAY, MARCH 30,2010
IT HAS BEEN A WHILE SINCE I 'VE HAD THE ENERGY TO,OR DESIRE TO BLOG . I HAVE BEEN IN A WRITING FUNK,HAVING NOTHING TO WRITE ABOUT,AT LEAST BELIEVING THAT . BUT,PEG,HAS STAYED BY ME THRU THIS PERIOD AND AS ALWAYS I MUST SEND HER A SHOUT OUT

THERE IS SO MUCH GOING ON IN THE WORLD RIGHT NOW,ALOT OF GOOD THINGS ARE TAKING PLACE, BUT THE MAINSTREAM MEDIA DOESN'T WRITE ABOUT THAT, OR REPORT ABOUT IT ON THE NEWS . IT SEEMS LIKE THE WORST THE IMAGES ARE THE BETTER TO REPORT IT . I WOULD LIKE FOR PEOPLE TO THINK FOR THEMSELVES ! DO NOT LET ANY FEED YOU NEGATIVITY AND BRING YOU DOWN . LIKE THE OLD SAYING GOES "MISERY LOVES COMPANY",THAT IS VERY TRUE . SURROUND YOURSELF AROUND POSITIVE PEOPLE SEE,IT IS EASY TO SIT BACK AND CRITIZE THOSE OUT THERE,AT LEAST TRYING TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE IN THE WORLD,ON THE POSITVE LEVEL . UTILIZE YOUR TIME CONSTRUCTIVELY TO MAKE THE WORLD BETTER AND SAFER FOR YOUR LOVED ONES AND FOR A STRANGERS FAMILY AS WELL

ONE OF THE THINGS I WANT TO TALK ABOUT IS THE PASSAGE OF THE HEALTH CARE LEGISLATION THIS PAST WEEK . FOR THOSE WHO MAY DISAGREE WITH THE BILL,YOU MUST UNDERSTAND THAT IT IS NEEDED . IF THE INSURANCE COMPANIES HAD ANY INTENTIONS OF GOVERNING THEMSELVES THEY WOULD HAVE DONE IT . THEY HAD YEARS TO CLEAN THEIR ACTS UP,"HAVE THEY ? ABSOLUTELY NOT !!" WHY ? WHY,SHOULD THEY WHEN THEY WERE MAKING RECORD PROFITS AND NO ONE FOR ALMOST A 100 YRS. HELD THEM RESPONSIBLE FOR THEIR ACTIONS .

WHEN SOMEONE COMES TO YOU IN NEED COULD YOU CONSCIENCOUSLY DENY THEM ? IF SOMEONE’S CHILD WAS HURT COULD YOU REFUSE TO HELP THEM ? IF YOU COULD THEN IMAGINE THAT IT IS SOMEONE YOU LOVE,COULD YOU STILL DO IT ? WELL THAT IS WHAT INSURANCE COMPANIES HAVE BEEN DOING FOR DECADES . NOW WE HAVE A PRESIDENT THAT TOOK THE FIGHT TO THEM AND WON . THIS BILL WON'T AFFECT ME FOR MANY YEARS, OUR HEALTH CARE “SUCKS” NO MATTER WHAT, BUT IT IS PRISON . WE'RE TALKING ABOUT PEOPLE WHOM HAVE PAID PREMIUMS FOR YEARS/TO GET SICK AND FIND OUT THAT THEY HAVE NOTHING COMING ! NOW THAT IS UNCONSTITUTIONAL !!

I PRAY THAT ALL THE PEOPLE WHO NEED HEALTH CARE CAN NOW AFFORD IT . IT IS LONG OVERDUE ! I HAVE BEEN INCARCERATED FOR 15 YRS. AND I HAVE GROWN SO MUCH IN THAT TIME AND IF I HAD NOT, NOW THAT WOULD BE A TRUE CRIME. I HAVE LEARNED TO CARE ABOUT SOMEONE OTHER THAN MYSELF . I HAVE LEARNED TO HAVE LOVE FOR ALL OF GOD'S CHILDREN,BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY TO HAVE LOVE FOR MYSELF .

WHEN I WAS FIRST INCARCERATED I USED TO HATE EVERYONE(INCLUDING MYSELF-MAYBE MOSTLY MYSELF),I BLAMED EVERYONE FOR EVERYTHING THAT WAS WRONG IN MY LIFE...SELF-HATE IS THE WORST KIND OF HATE,ESPECIALLY IF YOU CAN NOT GET CONTROL OF IT...WELL,I PRAY THAT I HAVE MASTERED MY SELF-HATE A LITTLE BIT. MY POINT IS,IS THAT WHEN WE WISH BAD ON SOMEONE ELSE,IT'S BECAUSE THERE IS SOMETHING WRONG WITHIN US,WHETHER IT IS SPIRITUAL,EMOTIONAL OR MENTAL. WE SHOULD ALWAYS WANT FOR OTHERS WHAT WE WANT FOR OURSELVES,OR LOVED ONES. IT IS THE FOUNDATION OF HUMANITY,ALL OF MANKIND HAS A LOWER HALF AND A HIGHER HALF . OUR LOWER HALF IS THE FLESH AND IT IS EXTREMELY WEAK...THAT IS THE BEAST IN US ALL THAT WE MUST LEARN TO CONTROL,MAYBE EVEN TAME . NOW YOUR HIGHER HALF,IS YOUR SPIRITUAL SELF...YOUR GODLY HALF...WHEN GOD SAIDS THAT MAN IS MADE IN MY IMAGE THAT IS THE IMAGE . THERE IS A WAR WAGING AND RAGING INSIDE OF US ALL,BUT THERE IS THIS CENTER INSIDE OF US,THAT BALANCES THESE BATTLES . THAT IS YOUR CONSCIENCE,IT'S LIKE YOUR LINK TO GOD AND THRU GOD,ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE . NEVER LET YOUR LOWER HALF RULE YOUR BODY, MIND AND HEART ALWAYS THINK POSITIVE,AND YOU WILL BE POSITIVE,EVEN WHEN YOU THINK THAT,"MAN, IT'S TOO HARD ,1 SHOULD JUST GIVE UP...I CAN'T GO NO FURTHER",THAT IS NOT YOU, THAT IS YOUR LOWER HALF,THE HALF THAT SATAN HAS ACCESS TO . ALWAYS KEEP YOUR HEAD ABOVE WATER AND BELIEVE THAT GOD WILL MAKE A WAY .

I KNOW I HAVE BEEN RAMBLING ON AND ON AND THIS BLOG MAY NOT MAKE MUCH SENSE,BUT IT IS FROM MY HEART,PLUS I REALLY JUST NEEDED TO WRITE , I'VE BEEN IN MY FUNK TOO LONG,SO HOPEFULLY THIS BLOG WILL HELP BREAK THE SPELL I WILL SAY THIS: FOR THOSE OF YOU OUT THERE WHO LOOK DOWN ON ALL PRISONERS:DON'T ! THERE ARE SOME GOOD PEOPLE IN HERE AND IF YOU CONTINUE TO BE SCARED OF US,OR CONDEMN US,THEN YOU WILL NEVER GET THE OPPORTUNITY TO KNOW US AND THE GREATNESS THAT WILL HAVE INSIDE US . WE ARE HUMAN,WE LOVE,WE CRY,FEEL PAIN,SADNESS AND HAPPINESS . REMEMBER THAT,WHEN YOU SIT AROUND AND TALK ABOUT PRISONERS AGAIN . INSTEAD OF SAYING SOMETHING NEGATIVE SAY SOMETHING POSITIVE WE LIKE,"WE NEED TO BE MORE ACCEPTING SO THAT WHEN THEY GET OUT THEY WILL KNOW THAT THEY HAVE A PLACE IN SOCIETY,AS LONG AS THEY LIVE ACCORDING TO THE LAWS OF THE LAND", THAT THERE ENCOURAGES SOMEONE TO BE BETTER AND TO DO BETTER .

WELL,I HAVE TAKING UP ENOUGH OF YOUR TIME,I PRAY THAT YOU ENJOY THE BLOG IF NOT ALL OF IT,THEN SOME . MAY GOD BLESS AND KEEP YOU SELF AND SAFER IN YOUR DARKEST HOUR(S) .
RESPECTFULLY,
Marteze Harris